hey dude, i really miss you. i´m 18 now, isn´t that crazy? 3 years older than you ever turned.. why does it feel so illegal? so wrong?.. i´m trying to be strong, to hold on but it´s just so fcking hard. still not able to process everything that had happened. it´s so hard to breathe, so hard to feel, so hard to hold on. be with me, okay? i miss you, wish i could be with you. i love you. so much.